My journeys into the unknown…
My journeys into the unknown…
If truth is only in the mind, do thoughts become easily manipulable and malleable? That is the question that came up while watching a video on the thoughts and ideas of George Orwell.
I have been thinking about his work, “1984” recently because of how similar some of the themes are to the writing projects I am working on.
For those of you who don’t know me, I am a computer technician by trade, but I aspire to become a Science Fiction writer and have been working on learning the craft for over 10 years in my free time. I often get myself stuck on projects I can’t finish, but I am getting better at focusing in on modern fictional writing projects that are closer to home. I am still working on a few ideas I have for a Sci-Fi project, but I don’t consider myself to have enough experience to write a novel yet.
...moreI heard about Mental Health Awareness Month from another Youtuber “Ben Gravey” a surfer who was an alcoholic who changed his life through surfing. I had a life-changing experience myself and I thought it would be a good idea to share it.
In 2017 I had a brain hemorrhage. The doctor said it was brought on by out-of-control blood pressure. To be fair, my blood was high pressure back then so they may have been right.
...moreI am involved in doing interpersonal work with the Mankind Project. I joined MKP after my brain injury in 2017 and ever since I have been writing about life. This piece is about my introduction into this work.
I’m Scott Larson, Purple Flower Turtle. I initiated at Camp Royaneh Cazadero, CA in 2018. My initiation into the Mankind Project brotherhood changed my life forever. Before I committed to the New Warrior Training Adventure, I joined an I Group in my area called “Brothers of Other Mothers”. Recently some of us split off and created a new group called “Journeymen”. Back in the BOOM I group, I learned something new about myself every week and it set the groundwork for building a better me. But if I want to be honest with myself the work really started in the hospital recovering from a brain injury brought on by out-of-control blood pressure, which now I am wondering if this condition was the catalyst to get me out of my head. My real suffering came from a condition of the mind called “A life not truly lived”. At the time, while working through the physical condition of my injury, it was difficult to see trees from the forest of my life. After being released from ICU, I wandered the streets of my new hometown in Sebastopol searching for a way out of that forest. In a chance encounter, I found this brotherhood in my favorite bagel shop. A flyer on a community board wall reached out reminding me that something about my life didn’t feel quite right. Before the injury, I blamed the world for my circumstances that lead up to my broken life. I had nobody to blame by myself. But that was then and this is now.
...moreThe sun is a friend to me. It lights up the way to myself, filling me with gratitude and wellbeing. Even when it shines in my face while I’m trying to write. I cannot become too annoyed. I know that to become annoyed is to invite a breakdown. Being a man requires calmness and patience. For myself, my world, and my life.
Every day I get up when the sun rises, and go to sleep when the sun sets. I didn’t decide to do this, it just happened. There is a healing power in the activity of revolving my life around the sun. Being awake at the crack of dawn gives me a certain earthly perspective on life. When I was revolving my life around the night, my life revolved around the dark sun of unearthly tendencies. I had this need to indirectly harm myself, and others through thoughts and speech. It wasn’t until my awakening that I realized that I disconnected myself from the life of the planet.
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